I shall try to shorten this post but today was definitely a long day.
Went Admiralty to find dear. Then we went Causeway Point together. We didn't really talk until when we were at Causeway Point. Dear held my hands like how he held them on our first date. But I was still having no expression then, most probably cause I was tired after the long mrt ride. We went to buy the movie tickets together. The movie was 'The Dark Knight', there was a trailer on Nuffnang Ads once. After buying the tickets, we went to walk around. But I gave the sian-sian face, dear was angry about that. Then when we went back to the cinema cause the show was starting, I cried outside. I think I'm becoming more and more useless, everything also cry. There were tears on dear's cardigan. :X We went in to watch, starting I don't understand a single thing. We held our hands all the way until my hand turned numb. And I was bored & tired so I rest on dear's shoulder, king sized bed! :D So if you're thinking if you could ask me about the movie, then you're so wrong. One thing bad was that the sound was super loud, made me chua tio many times. After the movie, I still don't understand anything. I feel so...DUMB. :D
We met up with Luv, James & Baby. We all went back to 768 together. The bus trip was cooooooool. ;) They wanted to settle some things at the carpark. Whereas Baby & I were happily playing together at one side. Yes, she loves to piak my ponytail. I still cannot believe the fact that shes my junior and we were the alumni of RSS. I was very much entertained. They talked for very long and I was supposed to reach home at 8pm. So I waited and waited, finally I decided to go home. Baby brought me to the bus stop.
I stoned at the bus stop and waited for so long for the bus to come. I even got bored and started to retie my hair. Then I received a call from dear, can hear from his voice that he was very angry at that point of time. We talked for awhile on the phone then we met up again and talk. Kena scolded for very long and many things happened. It was drizzling that time too. We had to go back to 768.
Once again we went back to the carpark again. After much talking, it was finally settled. It had made our relationship stronger, thats what I felt. By that time, it was already 9 plus. I decided to take cab home cause its too late already.
Dear sent me to take the cab together with Luv and Baby. Then Baby & I went home together. Talked with Baby and then she dropped at SengKang while I stayed in the cab till Bedok. Throughout the journey, I looked out through the car window and watch everything move and pass by me. I kept quiet and listened to the music played by the taxi driver. Although the music wasn't any great piece nor was it sang by famous singer, it was just a simple piece of music that made me felt calm and peaceful. I finally reached home at 10.20pm.
Went to my room to put my bag. Then Dad requested to talk with me. So I went to the living room. While he was talking halfway, he asked Mum to talk to me. He went back to my room, took my bag, searched for my handphone and fucking confiscate it. Its gonna be for a month, 30+ days, gosh! I was also supposed to promise him that I would go home right after school and no more going out for 1 month. Which also meant that I was grounded + no phone. Everything came crashing down when I heard that. Why, just why must I have such parents? Maybe everything is just fated? I was fated to be made by accident by them cause they just can't be bothered to use a condom. I was fated to be everything opposite from Bro, hes clever while I'm stupid. I was fated to be what I'm today, they said that they would disown me if they really have to.
Fuckers. Fuck too much, never use condom = give birth to me. 自爱, 自爱, I was asked to 自爱 by Dad when I already love myself so much. I think they are just overreacting, its just 10.20pm! I feel like cursing them more but overall they are still my parents.
I just got this feeling that God is making fun of me. I didn't mean to offend God in anyway, pardon me. But its like I just managed to clear things up in the relationship and now I can't even contact with dear. Don't you guys think its too much of my parents?
I'm really afraid that dear will cannot take it. I scared that he cannot wait until the 1 month end. Sigh, ITS ALL BECAUSE OF MY PARENTS. Now I can't even contact dear. D:
I shall try to shorten this post but today was definitely a long day.
Went Admiralty to find dear. Then we went Causeway Point together. We didn't really talk until when we were at Causeway Point. Dear held my hands like how he held them on our first date. But I was still having no expression then, most probably cause I was tired after the long mrt ride. We went to buy the movie tickets together. The movie was 'The Dark Knight', there was a trailer on Nuffnang Ads once. After buying the tickets, we went to walk around. But I gave the sian-sian face, dear was angry about that. Then when we went back to the cinema cause the show was starting, I cried outside. I think I'm becoming more and more useless, everything also cry. There were tears on dear's cardigan. :X We went in to watch, starting I don't understand a single thing. We held our hands all the way until my hand turned numb. And I was bored & tired so I rest on dear's shoulder, king sized bed! :D So if you're thinking if you could ask me about the movie, then you're so wrong. One thing bad was that the sound was super loud, made me chua tio many times. After the movie, I still don't understand anything. I feel so...DUMB. :D
We met up with Luv, James & Baby. We all went back to 768 together. The bus trip was cooooooool. ;) They wanted to settle some things at the carpark. Whereas Baby & I were happily playing together at one side. Yes, she loves to piak my ponytail. I still cannot believe the fact that shes my junior and we were the alumni of RSS. I was very much entertained. They talked for very long and I was supposed to reach home at 8pm. So I waited and waited, finally I decided to go home. Baby brought me to the bus stop.
I stoned at the bus stop and waited for so long for the bus to come. I even got bored and started to retie my hair. Then I received a call from dear, can hear from his voice that he was very angry at that point of time. We talked for awhile on the phone then we met up again and talk. Kena scolded for very long and many things happened. It was drizzling that time too. We had to go back to 768.
Once again we went back to the carpark again. After much talking, it was finally settled. It had made our relationship stronger, thats what I felt. By that time, it was already 9 plus. I decided to take cab home cause its too late already.
Dear sent me to take the cab together with Luv and Baby. Then Baby & I went home together. Talked with Baby and then she dropped at SengKang while I stayed in the cab till Bedok. Throughout the journey, I looked out through the car window and watch everything move and pass by me. I kept quiet and listened to the music played by the taxi driver. Although the music wasn't any great piece nor was it sang by famous singer, it was just a simple piece of music that made me felt calm and peaceful. I finally reached home at 10.20pm.
Went to my room to put my bag. Then Dad requested to talk with me. So I went to the living room. While he was talking halfway, he asked Mum to talk to me. He went back to my room, took my bag, searched for my handphone and fucking confiscate it. Its gonna be for a month, 30+ days, gosh! I was also supposed to promise him that I would go home right after school and no more going out for 1 month. Which also meant that I was grounded + no phone. Everything came crashing down when I heard that. Why, just why must I have such parents? Maybe everything is just fated? I was fated to be made by accident by them cause they just can't be bothered to use a condom. I was fated to be everything opposite from Bro, hes clever while I'm stupid. I was fated to be what I'm today, they said that they would disown me if they really have to.
Fuckers. Fuck too much, never use condom = give birth to me. 自爱, 自爱, I was asked to 自爱 by Dad when I already love myself so much. I think they are just overreacting, its just 10.20pm! I feel like cursing them more but overall they are still my parents.
I just got this feeling that God is making fun of me. I didn't mean to offend God in anyway, pardon me. But its like I just managed to clear things up in the relationship and now I can't even contact with dear. Don't you guys think its too much of my parents?
I'm really afraid that dear will cannot take it. I scared that he cannot wait until the 1 month end. Sigh, ITS ALL BECAUSE OF MY PARENTS. Now I can't even contact dear. D:
If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late, would you say goodbye to yesterday?
Don't just look at what's on the outside,
You'll have to look deeper inside.
Words can't express all that I want to say here,
So let's just keep this introduction short and sweet.
Status: Oblivious You can talk all you want, but my skin is really thick...
11:59 AM | Back to top 
: bbq-jy@hotmail.com
